Allison’s Diary
Another guest post from Allison as we follow her along on her journey to becoming healthy and hoping for another little one.
Well, last week I was feeling pretty good. So good in fact, that I didn’t think a post was even needed. I finished my last acupuncture appointment last week Monday, and was feeling pretty good. I started temping on Tuesday, and finished up the herb on Friday. All in all, it seemed like a great week, without much to report.
Let me catch you up to speed. I began charting my basal body temperature to confirm that I am indeed ovulating, and that the herbs and acupuncture are actually working. I tried to avoid doing this, since it gets to be tedious and I tend to focus on the numbers and get a little obsessive about it. Plus, I know all of the signs for ovulation without temping, so I have a pretty good idea of when it will happen. But, alas, I started again. Just incase things didn’t go as expected, because my acupuncturist can tell what is going on by the way my numbers look.
To start out with, my chart looked like this. 
Nice and steady, even temperatures. This is usually a sign that hormone levels are stable, doing what they need to be doing. I compared it to my past charts from the last time we were trying to conceive, and my temps always even out right before ovulation. I was so excited, I could hardly contain myself. I was convinced that over the weekend I would start to see other signs that pointed to ovulation. I was even toying with the idea of officially trying this month, even though I was told to wait for 6 months. What can I say, I’m just not a patient person.
Nice and steady, even temperatures. This is usually a sign that hormone levels are stable, doing what they need to be doing. I compared it to my past charts from the last time we were trying to conceive, and my temps always even out right before ovulation. I was so excited, I could hardly contain myself. I was convinced that over the weekend I would start to see other signs that pointed to ovulation. I was even toying with the idea of officially trying this month, even though I was told to wait for 6 months. What can I say, I’m just not a patient person.
Well, the weekend went by, and nothing happened. Still up beat and happy, I was certain that this week would be the week. We’re closing in day 20 of my cycle, so I’m due to ovulate. Then, it started to happen. I had one wacky temperature, it jumped way, way down. 
Now, this can be a sign of ovulation, so I wasn’t without hope yet, even though I don’t have any other signs. The next day it went up a little, then the following day, it went up pretty high. While all of these things can be a sign that I did actually ovulate, I’m not feeling very hopeful.
Now, this can be a sign of ovulation, so I wasn’t without hope yet, even though I don’t have any other signs. The next day it went up a little, then the following day, it went up pretty high. While all of these things can be a sign that I did actually ovulate, I’m not feeling very hopeful.
You see, I’ve always had the other signs too. Each and every time I’ve ovulated (when I was tracking) they began a few days before ovulation, then disappeared a day or two after. This time, nothing. So while it’s possible that I did ovulate, I’m just not feeling that it’s happened.
Which brings me to today. I’m at day 21, and I’m waiting. Waiting to see what the next few temperatures will bring. If it stays up, then happy day, I ovulated. If the temps continue to jump around, then something is going on. My hormones are not doing what they should be for ovulation to occur. That does not make me a happy camper. In fact, it’s darn right depressing.
Waiting, waiting, waiting. This is the hardest part. Each morning I’m excited to see what my temp will be (even if that means my alarm goes off at 5:00 each day). Then I want to rush through each day to see what tomorrow’s temp will be. Each day that goes by, I’m getting a little more frustrated, feeling a little more down, and wondering if acupuncture is really the best solution for me. It’s so hard to stay positive and upbeat when things just don’t seem to be going the way I had hoped. It’s equally as hard to realize that I can only do so much, the rest is out of my hands. Letting go is not something that comes easily to me.
Don’t get me wrong, I haven’t given up hope yet. It’s only been 21 days after all. The longest I have to wait is 19 more days to see my acupuncturist again. That’s if there is no sign of ovulation or my cycle kicking in. I’m going to continue with this line of treatment, because I really do feel that it is the right thing for me. Anything worth fighting for is worth having, and I’m not about to give up this fight.
Resources for Tracking Ovulation from FertilityFriend.com
I’m not affiliated with FertilityFriend, I just use and trust this resource for tracking my cycles and for information related to charting, ovulation and signs of fertility.
I have a lot of new and exciting things coming up here this fall, so make sure you add my blog's RSS Feed to your reader or you can sign up for free updates by Email. I can also be found on Facebook and Twitter! **
I was too impatient to chart my temp and all… I used the pee-on ovulation predictors, but it is true, we have to be in-tune with our body’s cycles.
[Reply]
I am on month 7 of TTC post miscarriage and I am terrified to temp. Same time every day, and lots of things affect it…so I just didn’t want to…If it doesn’t happen this month I think I have to, because if we don’t get pg then I may need to see an RE and it will be good to have the charts to show…good luck!
[Reply]